“If it’s meant to be, then it will be

And I forgive it all as it comes back to me”

—Ethel Cain, "Sun Bleached Flies"

what is this?

Spawned from a series of unfortunate events and a year-long journey that irrevocably changed our life, clem’s diary is an ongoing collection of personal essays devoted to documenting mental health recovery, appreciating every “small” moment, and making a continuous, concentrated effort to keep the spark of hope alive.

who are you, again?

Some of you may know us from our TikTok where we share educational skits, informative Q&As, and other videos to raise awareness about what it’s like to live with Dissociative Identity Disorder. Most of you probably don't know us at all. Either way, we appreciate you being here. Thank you for reading, and thank you for taking a chance on our writing.

We sincerely hope you enjoy your stay.

the essays (in no particular order)

✦ five simple ways to unfuck your life

✦ monster

✦ how to love your life like a weed loves the pavement

✦ how to let the light in

✦ the world can't help but change around us

✦ this is not an essay and i am not a god

✦ i will not have my vengeance

✦ mother, may i sleep with anger?

✦ this is not the end of the world

✦ crazy is a portal through which we are freed